urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:artstar_x i'm sitting under falling stars.. artstar_x 2006-11-06T21:17:11Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:artstar_x:34476 2006-11-06T21:17:11Z 2006-11-06T21:17:11Z oh, life...what's going on with you lately?<br />i feel like i'm in the twilight zone or something.<br />gfgljkblkdbjgfsdh<br /><br />things are on my mind..<br />i really miss you kid, a lot.<br /><br /><i>I went on a walk inside your head, the other day <br />I couldn't believe some of the things, I heard you say cause <br />I've seen the way, that you've been looking at me <br />and its dangerous, and very intentionally <br /><br />well we can spend the afternoon, locked in your room <br />don't act so surprised, I know what you wanna do <br />turn off my phone, cause I don't wanna hear it ring <br />I know my girls be calling up, consistently <br /><br />saying.. <br />ohh, here we go again <br />you know we thought she learned her lesson <br />ohh but I guess I didn't and <br />it'd be foolish to pretend to say that, I never loved you, and ill never ever love you again <br /><br />So I was walking down the road, the other day <br />I was doing just fine, daydreaming my life away <br />and then, little daisy caught my eye, and said <br />"ill tell you if he loves you or not" and to my surprise <br />well I think that daisy lied, cause <br />I seen the way, that you've been looking in my eyes, <br />its ohh so nice, you got me in a daze and now, how could I complain <br /><br />ohh, no here we go again, you know I <br />thought I learned my lesson, <br />but you know I never do <br />and it'd be stupid to believe that <br />I never loved you and that I'll never love you again <br /><br />again, ill never love you <br />again, ill be thinking of you again <br />and again, and again, and again</i> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:artstar_x:34296 2006-10-20T01:53:34Z 2006-10-20T01:54:31Z <a name="cutid1"></a>T.h.e. W.h.o.s<br /><br />Who is in the house with you? little brother.<br /><br />Who was the last person to IM you? christian.<br /><br />Who are you thinking about now? some boy.<br /><br />Who did you last talk to on the phone? rhi.<br /><br />Who do you sit next to in your 2nd period class? leigh is on the right of me and brandy is on my left.<br /><br />Who is your favorite teacher? hart.<br /><br />Who's birthday is next? brent's<br /><br />Who was the last person you told you love them? rhi.<br /><br />Who's you favorite relative? my sister and a few cousins.<br /><br />Who gets on your nerves the most from your school? quite a few. lol<br /><br />Who do you hope will take this survey? i don't care.<br /><br /><br />T.h.e. W.h.e.r.e.s.<br /><br />Where do you go to school? wths.<br /><br />Where do you live? jersey.<br /><br />Where is your phone? to my right.<br /><br />Where are your parents? dad's working, mom's somewhere<br /><br />Where do you sleep? my bed. :D<br /><br />Where do you shop the most? doesn't matter.<br /><br />Where did you get the shirt you're wearing? my sister got it for me.<br /><br />Where did you last take a car ride to? wawa. <br /><br />Where in your house are you? florida room.<br /><br />Where did you get this survey? ren.<br /><br /><br />t.h.e. W.h.a.t.s<br /><br />What was the last thing you ate? carrots with french dressing.<br /><br />What was the last thing you drank? water.<br /><br />What color pants are you wearing? jeans.<br /><br />What kind of cell phone do you have? verizon.<br /><br />What is the closest item near you that is blue? one of those little paper clips.<br /><br />What do you like about school? that it's almost over.<br /><br />What are you wearing on your feet? nothing.<br /><br />What instant messaging service do you use? AIM.<br /><br />What is your favorite color? green.<br /><br />What is your screen name? thislastxkiss<br /><br />What is your most used away message? it changes.<br /><br />What is your favorite website? google.<br /><br />What is your favorite shoe brand? flip flops<br /><br />What color do you wear the most of? brown or green.<br /><br />What is the last movie watched? just my luck.<br /><br />What song do you currently hear? 9mm and a 3piece suit. - Catch 22<br /><br />Type your FIRST REACTION when you hear these 35 words (don't spend time thinking - just your gut reaction please):<br /><br /><br />1. I need: sleep.<br />2. Sex: i have a few weords for this one, none of which i'd like to write here. lol<br />3. Relationships: ongoing<br />4. Your Last Ex: hahahaha<br />5. Power: freedom.<br />6. Marijuana: missed.<br />7. Crack: cocaine!<br />8. Food: no-coffee.<br />9. This President: shutup<br />10. War: "make love, not war!" &lt;-hell yeah, ren!!<br />11. Cars: love<br />12. Gas Prices: lower.<br />13. Halloween: soon!<br />14. Bon Jovi: yayy<br />15. Religion: nope.<br />16. MySpace: lol<br />17. Worst Fear: losing someone i love<br />18. Marriage: eventually.<br />19. Fashion: school.<br />20. Brunettes: ..k<br />21. Redheads: big sister!<br />22: Work: underpaid.<br />23: Pass the time: clocks.<br />24: Football: cowboys. what now?! lol<br />25: One night Stands: overrated.<br />26: Pet Peeve: people who chew with their mouths open.<br />27: Pixie Stix: chris.<br />28: Vanilla Ice: lauren! lmao.<br />29: Porta Potties: grossss.<br />30: High school: fuck that shit.<br />31: Pajamas: comfy.<br />32. Wood: burning.<br />33. Surfers: fun.<br />34. Pictures: i miss the days.<br />35. First Love: live and love<br /><br /><br /><br />1. Are you wearing a necklace? of course.<br /><br /><br />2. Do you like someone right now? sure.<br /><br /><br />3. Who is the main person(s) you talk to at work? a few.<br /><br /><br />5. What color is your shirt? redish.<br /><br /><br />7. What song are you listening to? engine no.9 - deftones.<br /><br /><br />8. What was the last mall you went to i have no idea.<br /><br /><br />9. Are you alone? no.<br /><br /><br />10. Do you have any older siblings? yep!<br /><br /><br />11. What is the last thing you ate? you already asked this question.<br /><br /><br />12. Who was the last person to come over to your house? lauren, anthony, kyle, alex, shipton, and tim<br /><br /><br />13. Who was the last person to call you? rhi.<br /><br /><br />14. Who was the last person who texted you? jt.<br /><br /><br />16. What should you be doing? sleeping.<br /><br /><br />17. Who is the last person you sent a message? IM? christian.<br /><br /><br />18. Did you go out to eat yesterday? no.<br /><br /><br />19. What are you thinking right now? i think i want to cut my hair again, even though i cut it last night. lol<br /><br /><br />20. What color are your shorts? i have a lot of shorts.<br /><br /><br />21. What color is your keyboard? black.<br /><br /><br />22. What do you feel like eating/drinking? coffee.<br /><br /><br />23. Are you in college? i will eb bythis time next year.<br /><br /><br />24. What is the last text you wrote? "i never got it"<br /><br /><br />25. Are you bored? just tired.<br /><br /><br />26. How many teeth do you have? however many are in my mouth.<br /><br /><br />28. Do you wear glasses? yeah, i like 'em.<br /><br /><br />29. What color are your shoes? i don't wear shoes. lol<br /><br /><br />31. Last thing you drank? water.<br /><br /><br />33. Who do you love? friends, family.<br /><br /><br />35. What are you doing right now? getting coffee ready for the morning and getting ready for bed.<br /><br /><br />37. Do you know how to spell bananas? ..yes.<br /><br /><br />38. What're the last words you said? i don't know.<br /><br /><br />39. Do you have clothes on? yeah.<br /><br /><br />36. Do you like llamas? sure.<br /><br /><br />42. Do you have a cut on your pointer finger? no.<br /><br /><br />43. Where is your cell phone? to my right.<br /><br /><br />44. Do you have any friends named Skyler? a neighbor.<br /><br /><br />46. Do you have any friends named Axel? nope.<br /><br />47. Are you afraid of the dark? no, but it's a kick ass show. :)<br /><br /><br />48. Did you used to watch "Are you afraid of the dark"? yeah, not many of them but alex got the seasons and i watched a few with him i remembered a lot of them.<br /><br /><br />49. Does your computer have a mouse? this one does.<br /><br /><br />50. What size shoe do you wear? 5.<a name="cutid2"></a> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:artstar_x:33651 2006-10-19T02:52:53Z 2006-10-19T02:52:53Z <i>head like a hole, black as your soul<br />i'd rather die than give you control.</i><br /><br /><br /><br />figures..haha<br /><br />jerk. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:artstar_x:33290 2006-10-17T01:21:46Z 2006-10-17T01:21:46Z life is really amazing. i'm happy a lot of the time. petty things don't aggrivate me anymore and i find myself saying "i don't give a fuck" to a lot of the stupid things. being clean is going really well it's 26 day today and i'm happy about it. i was talking to anthony's brother about some stuff at the mayfair show yesterday and i really don't want to go back to doing things like i was. it's not worth it right now. and i thought a lot about things this weekend. there always has to be some underlying drama. i love to be happy and just kinda be in my own world doing what i have to do and i really hate when people try to start saying things that just put down what you believe in. i don't ever want to hear "what happens when you realize that peace is a whole bunch of bullshit and violence is just life" again. that is re-fucking-diculous.if you seriously think that the only thing in life that should be considered is violence than i think you might have a problem. <br /><br />be happy, live and love, life is good so keep it that way.<br /><br />on another note, i miss some of my old friends. you all left for college and i'm still here. in this school. which i think is probably the only thing that makes me unhappy right now. other than school things are really good. but i still miss you all and i wish i could see all of you! &lt;3<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />265 days until i'm 18 and goneeeee. :D urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:artstar_x:33277 2006-10-14T03:11:36Z 2006-10-14T03:11:36Z so, i think i have a thing for a boy.<br />but the fucked up thing is, i know it's not a good idea.<br />no one would "approve" of him.<br />i like hanging out with him.<br />and i like being near him.<br />i wish it was easier to consider someone.<br />everyone seems to have an opinion on things these days.<br />and to some point i wouldn't blame anyone for thinking it's not the best idea that i even hang out with him.<br />sucks, man.<br /><br />people always have to say something..<br />i wish i could close off certain times into different worlds.<br />where there's no worries.<br />just you and the people you want around.<br /><br /><br /><br />23 days clean mudafucka's!